• Sunny

    If you’re looking for a light read, turn back now. We are hitting heavy with this one.

    Oh hey there, don’t you worry about me. The dark circles under my eyes are only proof that I’ve cried for a week straight. Also, the smile on my face isn’t fake, it’s just a validation that I can do hard things. I asked the Lord for a miracle. He delivered in ways that I’m still trying to understand and honestly, it’s going to take some extra courage and maybe even a major overhaul to figure it out, but I’m game. There isn’t anything in life that I’ve ever desired more than truth. However, when you are a truth digger things get dirty on a dime. It’s a hard lesson…

  • Sunny

    Oh, you didn’t know? Me neither.

    I didn’t know that my friends descriptions of motherhood were true. They laughed as they spoke.  I sat shocked, hoping they were wrong.   I didn’t know my back side would get as big as my front side, while with child. Or that my feet would increase a full half size. I didn’t know the amount of food I would consume in one sitting.       Or the intense cravings calling for oranges and pickles and Mexican food.      I didn’t know the ferocity of my all consuming appetite. Or that it would just come right back UP, as I went DOWN with head in the toilet or in…

  • Sunny

    Here is how I talk to my kids about sex and why you should do the same…

    Coming to the reality that it’s time to have “the talk” with your children is hard. It’s hard, because there is a piece of you acknowledging that your innocents are no longer in a space that is shielded by your warrior mommy bubble. You so delicately placed them there the instant they were born and promised to shield them from all the ugliness in the world. I mean, how do you even teach your littles about sex when you still so much want them to believe in Santa?!?! Four years ago, Matt and I started this unnerving journey with our oldest three children. Belle was 7 at the time and…

  • Sunny

    Vacation pre-jitters and post-reality

    Pre-Vacay My nails are pale pink with perfectly set sparkles throughout. For my toes, I chose bright pink to match one of the 5 swimsuits I plan to wear. I started laser hair removal months ago so that I wouldn’t have to worry about any irritating issues while living in those suits.  New sunglasses and new clothes, perfect for any activity I could dream up while away. I planned my last hair appointment so the gray that so inconveniently pops up around my face would have no chance of being a bother. Hormones are in check and my monthly lady friend is scarce these days, thanks to a procedure I had…

  • Sunny

    it isn’t a fairytale

    Once upon a time, in a land far far away (in her mind), lived a mom. She sat at her computer reaching for a connection. This connection provided for her over and over again. It was an energy all consuming. She has felt it her whole life. This energy would roll out of her heart, into her fingertips and onto the pages before her. The words would flow like water down a stream and there was always more than enough. Today, she begs for it to find her…waiting. Nothing comes. She searches for the water and there is none. She is parched. The words aren’t flowing. There isn’t any reserve…